For Allison (Anderson)

Ali here. The blonde one. Tomorrow is November 19. One year ago, my BFF Allison went through something I could never imagine. She lost a child. Sweet baby Anthon, who was 42 days old. I had the privilege of meeting Anthon, and I can tell you that I've never felt a sweeter spirit coming from anyone. This sweet tiny baby was too special to stay on this earth. I know this past year has been very hard on Allison and her family. But what the world needs to know is that I admire Allison so much. Throughout everything she's been going through, she has consistently been a true friend. Someone who is there for everyone that needs her, when they need her. Being friends with Allison has changed my life in so many ways, and I am forever indebted to her because of things she'll probably never know.

One day, shortly after Anthon passed away, I found myself in the cemetary. It was during a very hard time for me, emotionally. There had been a girl that was considering giving her child up for adoption, and was considering us as adoptive parents for her baby. I had found out that morning that she'd decided to keep it and wasn't changing her mind. It was that week, also, that it was determined the current method of fertility treatments I was on wasn't working, and it had been discontinued. My heart was aching. I went to Anthon's little gravesite and knelt down. I told him that I knew there were other little babies needing to come to Earth, that not only I would get to be a mother to, but Allison as well. I asked him to watch over those babies and care for them until the time came for them to arrive. As I knelt there, in that sacred place, I felt the most overwhelming sense of peace. I knew my words had been heard. I couldn't stop the tears of peace and joy and love from streaming down my face. It's moments like that when you realize that Heaven just isn't that far away.

As I said in the intro, I believe in kindred spirits, and Allison and I definitely are just that. I hope she knows that I will always be here for her no matter what, as she has always been there for me. Allison, I love you. I know this is a hard time, a day of remembrance. And I know that you'll be with that beautiful baby again someday.